Separation of church and state

The original title was the separation of work and home but that’s not as catchy. I started this blog as a trial for a business related idea I wanted to test after I tested for a short time I scraped it and made this a personal blog to just play with the idea of a blog. I have changed the title and changed the theme of the site. The question now is should I still worry about what people that work where I do might think about what I post here or people that know where I work and are that companies customers think about what I post? A better question is did I ever care and I think the answer to both would be no. I do this on my time with my thoughts and my resources so why do I care what people think about what I post here? In case I have been unclear I will layout the things that might get me in trouble and get them out of the way. I feel I am getting the hard corporate cock shoved in my tiny anus and I really am not braced for it so it has caused a little tearing and pain. I feel that it was shear luck that the company made it past the first year if it was run the way it is being run then the way it is being run now. I feel there is a distinct lack of understanding of what is being asked of me and what results they really want out of it. I feel it is just not myself that is getting ass raped by this company but many other great people as well. I feel that I have spent to much time thinking metaphorically about my ass being assaulted for it to be healthy. I feel that my stress here is causing me to have many problems with both my wife and son and I don’t think that is a good idea. I feel that the project I am working on is going to fail due to lack of understanding of the scoop of SEO on the part of upper management. I feel that I do a great job and can do an even better job if left the fuck alone. All of these things start with “I feel” and that is the most important thing of all its all about how I feel. That is why this is a personal blog now. I plan on continuing to write about how I feel this is sort of like putting a video camera under my mattress and letting you see my diary. If your are cute and fun loving I will put the camera on top of my mattress just send me an email. The important questions that I can answer now are no I am not planning on leaving over not getting a title or promotion. No I am not going to be dedicated to this company and I have sent out resumes to many people to see what’s out there. when I leave this company it will be because I have gotten tired of the full feeling I have in my ass and the feeling that it will never go away as long as I am here. Its as if I have to leave before there is a value placed on what you do here and that is a type of cancer that has its core at the top of a company not the bottom. They always say when you work for yourself you work harder then you ever work for someone else and the reason that is always given is that you are working for your self. I have to agree with that but not for the implied reason its not that your working for yourself rather then someone else its that your are working for someone that you respect I will give my all to someone I respect and I cant respect someone that I feel has no respect for me. In the last 7 days I have been told i want to waste the companies money. I am not as valuable as some salesman. I don’t rate a title to match my job. Everyone thinks my job is important but it shouldn’t require tools. Side note how is a 350 yearly expense for a subscription to a tool and an information source a lot of money to any type of organization. I have been told that I should just be patient but I have done that before with this company and after a year of waiting I left then on the way out they asked if they could keep me with more money. The money isn’t the important part and that’s what makes it so hard I really hate money I just have to have it to do the important stuff so when all you address on a list of issues is the one I state as the least important how am I supposed to think you have heard anything I have said. Now I am rambling so I will turn it off and get home.
Blood makes noise.